I made a bed of yuck….and now I’m left to lay in it

I’d say, “I don’t know what happened”…..but I do. I reached the breaking point of overtraining and undersleeping. Not all of the sudden….not just for a moment in time……not at all. I’ve been in that state for weeks. I knew it….but tried to deny it to myself.

Last night….the wheels came off. I “beef fat binged” to a sick degree (hundreds and hundreds of grams)…..and tonight I binged again……ate a shit ton of fruit…..pesto sauce, avocado, olives…..and then stood there like a complete asshole and ate glucose powder and coconut oil straight out of the containers. Sick…..sick….sick.

Two day caloric total….no idea. At least 12k calories. I feel like you might suspect I do. Like crap.

I’m going to eat peanut butter tomorrow….just ’cause.

Then….I’ll figger’ it all out on Friday or Saturday.

Yuck.