More with less

Howdy!    Above average night of sleep again last night…..cool! That said, I was definitely ready for a day of recovery…..I’m whooped after those past three days of workouts. Sheesh….I just wanna’ be ready to attack again tomorrow for the pre-refeed depletion.

Food tonight…..started with the same 390 grams of meat mix….and felt good for a few hours….but then had this feeling that I neeeeeeded (not wanted) a bit more. This has, with all too great of frequency, led to the consumption of hundreds (and hundreds!) more grams of meat….eaten frozen…..while the freezer door sits there open. True.

Tonight…..some of the same danger signs….I didn’t weigh what I ate from the freezer. But….for whatever reason….I kept it very much under control. About 30 grams or so I think. That would put the 3 day meat / water total at 1200 grams….which is actually a decrease of 20 grams from the most recent 3 day meat total. I do plan, however, to bump that up again on the next 3 day portion…..probably to 420 grams per day. Why? Well….mainly because…..yikes….I keep dropping weight. Today I was at 68.2kg….a new low…..and a full 1.8kg (about 4 pounds) below what I think my “happy maintenance point” is. I can feel the positives of this weight loss….lean as heck, toned, muscles showing so well……but I can also sense the negatives….(which, interestingly enough have not included sleeplessness this time)…..first among them being less mental energy…..just, plain not as “sharp”. Dangerous!

So….tomorrow….refeed…..and a bit concerned that I may be vulnerable to a screw up there….although self control has been on my side the past two refeeds….and even the days in between.

“Cautiously optimistic”……lol!!!….I hate that phrase. But…I’ll use it to describe my outlook….’cause I’m not mentally sharp enough to think of a substitute. 

68.2 kg? Nuh uh. I will put some back on. Just need to start doing it now….before my body decides to do it for me with either a metabolic change….or an “eat like a complete asshole” refeed fiasco.