Weirdly Wonderful? Or Weirdly Woeful?

Today was a weird day…..weirdest since I gave up sugar about 100 days or so ago. I slept well last night (the extra beef fat seemed to help!), and felt like I could do a depletion workout….which meant I would then do the restaurant refeed with the preprepared “at home portion”. Before I left for the workout….I mixed in a bowl 200 grams of drained (threw the oil on top away) organic peanut butter (though this has 2gm salt that the almond butter variety didn’t)….150 grams of raw ox kidney…..and about 40 grams of cooked ox kidney fat. I added a bit of water…..and stirred it all up…..then put it in the refrigerator. I also put 15 grams of dried seaweed in a bowl. That’s it…..then I left for the official weekly weigh in …..a long walk….and then to the gym.

The weigh in was weird…..’cause for some reason, even after a very recent refeed that turned overfeed (just 3 days ago)…..my bodyweight fell off a cliff in the past 48 hours. In fact, today…..I was at a “new low”….now 31 pounds lower than the highest my weight got in the final days of sugar hell (only about 100 days ago)…..and, in fact, my weight was down 1.8 pounds since last week’s weigh in. I’ll say again, however…..and I mean it emphatically…..I don’t want to lose any more weight. I want to actually gain back this past week’s loss….and just “maintain” from there. So….next Friday…I’d like to be back up those 1.8 pounds. I think I’ll sleep and “feel” better.

The workout was another part of the weirdness. I was a bit tentative before I started…because I couldn’t believe I’d be up for a killa’ workout. But….whatever….I was. Weird? Yes. Whatever! I depleted my quads, lats, lower back, and rear delts….and then did very low intensity cardio for 16 minutes.

Then…I went to the restaurant. I stuck to plan…..except that I had a handful of nuts at the restaurant. But…..for carbs I only ate veggies (zuchinni, eggplant, a few chilis, bitter gourd, and some seaweed)…though I did have about a tablespoon of tahini at the end. For protein, I stuck to plan…..all seafood, mostly raw. I think I may have overdone it by about 100 grams or so….all at the end of the meal. I could have done without that….so total seafood was probably 400 grams or so. I also had a medium bowl of green curry sauce, and a small bowl of Tom Yam soup…..and some fish roe. I felt very full….but I knew most of it was water dense veggies….and I do think that was probably my lowest “restaurant portion” of a refeed….maybe second lowest if last Tuesday’s beat it. Not sure.

I came home….and probably could have skipped half of my “ox kidney / peanut butter” mush. But…I didn’t. I ate all of it….lol!!! And I ate the 15 grams of seaweed. I also poured about 3 grams of coconut oil on the final few pieces of seaweed. Yum!!!

But…..first time ever on a refeeeeeeeed…..no sugar of any kind. None. None. None. No sugars, no starches, no honey, no fruit….nuttin’!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

What’s weird about all that? Well, I take some Chitosan before each refeed to help speed up the “rid my body of some of the crap” process (literally!)…….and usually that means that….well….after a few hours…..some of what went in…..comes out. Tonight….for whatever reason…..that didn’t happen. Dunno’ why. Also, I feel more “stuffed” right now than in past refeeds….but less “yukky”. No sugar ups and downs. Could be that this was my highest sodium intake refeed…..or close to it….since the peanut butter and the seaweed were verrrrrrrrry salty. And I did drink 4.5 liters of water between the start of the meal and 6 hours later.

I don’t like feeling THIS full…….and as always, I’m a bit concerned that I may have missed something “not good” about the meal in my analysis…..but I really think I wasat about 3k calories….heck, if I’m completely wrong it couldn’t have been more than 4k calories…..and I know that it was mostly fat and no sugars of any kind. What will the total impact on me be? I won’t know for 3-4 days……and while I’d like to do one more “redeplete” workout tomorrow before a day off on Sunday….I’m not commiting to it…..’cause if my body feels “fried” tomorrow…..I’lld wait a day. Hmmmmmm….maybe I can just do some Tabata HIIT intervals, and then a bunch of reps of pushups, dips, and abs. Dunno’.

So….a weird day for a number of reasons. I won’t analyze it further for a few days. Nite, nite!!