Carbs…..ate ‘em. Carbs….hate ‘em

Great workout today…..did hi rep depletion sets….’cause…..well…..I sorta’ knew I’d be carbing tonight. Call it a “gut” feeling. Ha!

Besides not sleeping well the past few days….my bodyweight had dropped 5 pounds in the past week (even after last weekend’s carb fest).

So…..I ate carbs tonight. Lots of ‘em. But only at one meal (although the carb portion alone lasted an hour).

If things go according to plan….I’ll be up about 2.5 kilos in a few days……and then back down to where I was this morning by Sunday. I’d be happy enough with that…..and if it happens without too much angst along the way (sugar cravings….sleepless nights)…..I’ll consider a once weekly carb meal as a regular thing. Not sure yet…..and truly I’d prefer not to do that.

I want to….but I don’t know if I neeeeeed to

Great day today……recovery, lots of walking…..lots of meat! 

Menu was both cooked and raw “soft” pork ribs (the bone is easily edible), cooked pork kidney, raw ox kidney, raw beef and raw beef fat, and cooked lamb. I had a whole steamed mackerel (smallish one) ready to go….but just wasn’t hungry for it. In fact, there’s now even a little bit of today’s lamb and pork ribs in the refrigerator, being saved for tomorrow. Not much, but I was full without it, so I saved it.

All of this is surprising and cool for me…..but I still feel as though I need some carbs. Hard to explain, since I felt very satiated after eating today. It’s something deeper down that is asking me to have some carbs.

I really don’t know how to respond to my body’s request….since I’m not sure if it is coming from a place inside that wants the best for me……or the worst.

I’m thinking about eating some veggies or nuts tomorrow.

What’d I do about the hankering for nuts? Nuttin’!

One week ago tonight I was writing the daily post here with a belly full of sugar, a bloodstream full of first blood sugar and then insulin, and a heart full of regret.

One week later….tonight…..and I’m feeling reeeeeeally good. Today was an incredible strength workout….then a nice walk to the market……walked up to the nuts…and the cheese…..and decided, nope, I don’t need ‘em today.

Instead….bought (and ate!) lamb, pork, and beef….and some ox kidney. Meat fat has now become my most favorite tasting food. Really. And nothing satiates like it does. Nuttin’. 

I’m not swearing off nuts, or seeds, or even carbs……and I do still hold some thoughts that I will need a sort of “refeed” on occassion…..especially if I am maintaining the intensity of workouts that I have been. But, I’ll take it a day at a time…..and on this day….at this time…..I only needed meat. WOOHOO!!!

Successful day….but still something deep inside

Great day of recovery……nutrition (mackerel, ground lamb, raw beef +fat, raw pork ribs)…..and fantastically happy with no sugar cravings. I ate until I was full….and then didn’t feel like eating any more. Weird, eh?

That said….there’s something deep inside…..telling me to add some peanut butter or tahini. Not sure if it’s a secret carb craving…..or just a call for more calories (I’ve been on lowish calories most of this week).

And not sure what I’m going to do about it….yet.

Great day in many ways….but still one piece missing

Awesome day in terms of workout (HIIT) and food intake…..raw beef, raw beef liver, raw pork ribs, cooked beef, cooked pork ribs, cooked pork kidney, raw ox kidney….and a few grams of dried anchovies with shrimp paste.

That’s the “good”!

And…..there’s no “bad”!!!!!! 

That said….I still feel like I’m missing one piece of the daily nutrition puzzle. The no carb approach has proven to work very well for me….but it still seems that there might be a need for a tweak to avoid becoming too depleted of energy. Everything I’m reading contradicts this….saying instead that once fully keto adapted the energy will be not just adequate but even greater than from carbs. I just haven’t quite been doing this long enough to fully accept this. Certainly….last weekend’s one meal carb binge meant starting all over to test the long term effect of the no carb approach.

Time will tell. I’m hoping it “tells” me to stick with meeeeeeeeeeeat!! 

Hi, I’m keto adaptation…..remember me?

Well…heck yes…..I remember you! I missed you so much over the past few days. I hope we can hang together for a while!

Yup….what a difference 24 hours can make. Today I feel wonderful…had a fantastic workout…..and have had no sugar cravings even after eating what seems like not a lot of food. Today’s menu…..beef steak cooked, beef suet cooked, beef raw, beef suet raw, ox kidney raw, pork kidney cooked, pork ribs raw and cooked, and ground lamb cooked. Lots of variety…but not much total volume of any of them.

Best of all….I’m feeling perfectly satiated right now. OK….but that doesn’t mean it’s all ok……I won’t know for sure until I see how I feel tomorrow after today’s slight underfeed.

Did I mention…..I had a great workout today? 

Mucked it up….now feelin’ yuck

Curse the sugar addiction punk ass!!! I’m still feeling “weird” in regards to blood sugar level, appetite, and overall mental acuity.

One carb laden (specifically, sugar intensive) meal…..days ago…..and things are still out of whack.

Mental note to self: I’m an idiot if I repeat this mistake. I can’t handle carbs.

Appetite’s revenge?

Great day today….and great HIIT workout. But tonight my appetite was….well…..ravenous. No carbs…..ok, fine. But I ate a shitload of calories from anchovies, salmon skin, pork, beef liver, beef kidney, beef steak……and the dreaded…..chicken joints.

Not sure what to make of it….could be the reversal I was hoping to avoid after yesterday’s suppressed appetite. Could be a tapeworm, too…..lol!!!!

Tomorrow…..I’ll aim to bring things back under control.

A regret….but not a regression

Interesting that after last night’s sugar fest…..today there is none of the residual sugar craving, increased appetite, or general misery that I experienced before switching to zero carb.

Today….I ate some ground lamb (cooked), a whole mackerel (bones and all!), and raw beef liver and kidney.

Total was only about 800 calories….which, after yesterday is more than enough to leave me satiated.

Also…I had an unbelievable workout today….fueled, of course, by the sugar generated muscle glycogen. I figgered I’d put it to good use….and sought to deplete it as quickly as possible. I did 300 leg presses, 200 pushups, 100 high rows, 50 incline crunches, and 16 minutes on the bike…..all in about 45 minutes. Tomorrow will be some HIIT intervals on the eliptical…..after which…..should be no mo’ glycogen remnants from the sugar.

I wonder how well I’ll sleep tonight……will the cravings or appetite hit in the middle of the night? We’ll see.

Ignore whatever I say….ignore me…..spam me….I deserve it.

For one week…..I deserve the wrath of everyone who ever reads this post. (Well….for one week from the date I post this….not the date you read it….lol!!).

I went out to dinner tonight. And I ate perfectly.

Then….I decided to have “just a taste” of chocolate.

Wham….bam……the sugar addiction monster had its invitation. “Let the fun begin”….it said. Fun for it…..misery for me.

For about 90 minutes I stuffed more sugary sweets in my mouth than I care to remember.

Dumb. Fucking dumb.

This morning was the best I had felt in weeks. This evening….not so much.